Breathe Beautifully

So this is Justin!

I met him at my university and we became official November 4, 2012.

However I felt like we rushed into it too fast so I ask for us to take a break. So for both of us, we had a chance to find ourselves (that’s what I needed) and what we wanted in life.

He was totally ready to be with me and was willing to wait. I wasn’t quite ready after dealing with past relationships and I needed to accept myself in order to accept him fully.

He decided to spend New Years Eve with me despite the fact that he is an hour and a half away. I told him that he was totally crazy! His response? Yeah about you.

Of course I wanted him to meet my parents and I didn’t realize how scared he was going to be. He was complete nervous wreck! My parents gave him the “you’re taking my daughter out” talk. But he survived!

He took me shopping at this huge mall, we went bowling (his sport), got something to eat, and then went back to his house.

This is where it all happens.

The ball was 50 seconds away from dropping and he is like, I will be right back. I’m like what are you doing?! I need my new years kiss! So 10 seconds are left on the tv and he comes back and sits next to me.

He holds my hands and says to me, “Marissa I like you so much, more than you will ever understand. I’m not leaving, I want to be with you for as long as you want me. I know you have trust issues and I want you to know I’d never do anything to hurt you, you mean so much. So I wanted to give you something to let you know that I’m yours and that I can promise you that I will be there.”

At this point I’m in complete shock. And he starts grabbing something from his back pocket and I’m like HOLY SHIT. Out pops a box with a heart necklace and he asks me to be his girlfriend.

I obviously said YES!

He was so adorable because he was so nervous during this, he couldn’t get the words out right and he was shaking. I guess it just goes to show how much he cares.

Perfect beginning to the new year, let’s just say he has me falling.

xoxo

Marissa

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Seriously, you hurt me more than I ever thought someone could. I’m sick of seeing your facebook posts. I’m sick of seeing those other girls there. But most of all I don’t want to see you happy, because I think you’re an asshole. Not only that, but you act as if you don’t realize what you did. I’m pretty sure you know. I want to delete you so freaking bad. But I won’t. You know why? Because I have this little hope that maybe you’ll change your mind. You will come after me. You will care. You will say all those things you said to me before. 

But you probably won’t. In fact, I know you won’t. But I will keep you on my facebook so that you can see me happy. Because I am happy. I know that nothing is ever worth destroying because of you. Watch me walk away because I was the best damn thing you could have ever had in your life. 

But you had to say forever and always, didn’t you? 

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..this kid decided to talk about this one girl. This is girl is literally the most beautiful person ever, like so jealous. Not a lesbian, just jealous. However he decided to say how she was running in the summer in a sports bra and had a little pudge and said, “it was absolutely disgusting, she needs to lose weight.” OH MY GAWD. Are you freaking serious??? The one girl that I look at as perfect, a guy cuts up and says she is fat. She is legit like probably 112. Men. Sorry, had to share.

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